Thank you for taking the time to read my feelings. This blog has been created with the sole purpose of making my journey of self discovery easier, and also to share my experience.
Opening up to pain and reality is hard but necessary. I feel SO much sadness at this moment, my eyes are filling up with tears as I write these lines. It is so so sad to come to terms with failures, with life’s injustices. What do you do when you life is stolen? when you feel robed by someone who was suppose to protect you, but instead destroyed your life? how do you go back and fix it? with what strength!? with what courage? I have tried to forget all the pain and disappointment I’ve experienced through out my life but it isn’t easy.
Every human being deserves to be loved, a good family, a healthy and safe environment in which to develop and grow. I’m sad, I’m crying, I’m crying because I feel lonely, robed of opportunities and with so much to fix that I don’t know where to begin. All I know is that I need to maintain my dignity, my self worth because if I lose that I lose everything.
Right now I need to lose weight, I don’t have a job, I need someone to love me for who I am and to see my value and give me the place I deserve. I can’t count with my family, and I can’t open up to my friends, therefore dear reader, I open up to you or rather I share with you how I feel. I need to find the courage to get on with my life to fix the pieces of my broken life, and to try to be happy and go for the things I deserve. My story… no one knows my sad story, I guess is too sad to be told, to harsh to be understood, too cruel to be comprehended but if I can find it in myself, in time, I will tell you my story. For now I want to thank all my readers for existing, for being part of this vast universe. I don’t know you face to face, I don’t even know your name but what I do know, is that I’m not the only one who has suffered or feels alone. I will find the strength within me to make something great of my life, to use all the suffering to help others – I don’t know how, or when but I have a certainty deep in my soul that I will.